It’s days like these that I hate. It’s not that any class is going badly, or that anyone passed away…some days, though, I get so wrapped up in my own worries and fears about random things. Will anyone show up to the film showing (Rocky, by the way) this weekend? Where will I get the money to pay the bills? Why can’t/won’t/haven’t I do(ne) [insert project, goal, etc.] yet? Why can’t I find a girl? I’m using GTD, why is there so much stuff left to do? What motivation is there to play in the Symphony next year? PUMUG is struggling, but I haven’t the damnest idea on what will fix it – is this my fault?
All day, every day – that’s all I hear in my head. To be honest, I don’t know how to silence it. I keep plugging away at what needs to be done, and am ultimately disappointed at what is accomplished and what promises I have faltered on. One needs to set high goals to acheive them, but constantly coming a few yards short is exhausting on the spirit. Of course I have ideas on what would solve my pains, but as usual they’re all material- or relationship-based.
Until I can better prioritize and focus, I’m not sure what all will fall short, or pass me by all together.
What do you play in the Symphony? I really enjoyed the last concert.
This might help motivate: Once you leave school, you won’t have many chances to play. Take advantage of it while you can.
I’m the principal cellist. I’m glad you enjoyed the last concert!
As for not having chances, you’re right, but I haven’t had time away from playing since…well, 4th grade. That’s 14 years of being involved with it. Not playing all summer usually renews my appreciation of it, but this last concert was particularly taxing, and this upcoming one is about 20 pieces I would rather not play (showtunes, mostly).
I trust our director implicitly, but sometimes I just wish we’d pick a new symphony and work on that instead of trying to learn (or relearn) 20+ pieces for a concert in Indianapolis so we can sell tickets to pay for a $10,000+ singer to come sing for a night. Don’t we have vocal groups at Purdue? But I digress…
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sometimes life just gets that crazy hectic. you feel like you are sinking and as much as you try to get to the surface, you can’t. you aren’t the first and won’t be the last to feel this. it is what you do with it that builds and strengthens you as a person. the stress of academics will soon be a distant memory and a new motivation will come. all anyone can expect is that you will put your best foot forward in any situation. you may fail, you may succeed, either way, you’ll know you put yourself out there.
“everything is okay in the end. if it isn’t okay, then it isn’t the end.”
Hey Matt. Welcome to adulthood. Don’t sweat it too much. I’m learning even now to “just let it go.” It’s okay if your To Do list runs like an NYSE ticker. It’s a good indicator that you’re alive. And quite the apropos weekend to be reminded of that life. Hang in there, ffocus on the BEST things, and don’t sweat the petty things….Don’t pet the sweaty things either!